now about WEB OF PASSION
It really is hard to write about because it was a nonlinear night that
created itself ... on the surface nothing much happened for hours ....
me drinking water, talking to people who packed the small (great) space.
They arrived on time ... that never happens ... so I didn't have time
before they came. No assholes came ... or came in ... n the video of
it you can hear assholes outside the door all through the night, but
they never came in...the force field worked! Inside, the web was there
from the beginning ... all of us wanted to go deep and small, revealing.
So I sat without my board, Linda translating me/feisto. A room of amazing
people telling/revealing their stories. Nude Teresa throughout the night
kept going from person to person, feeling/touching under clothes beyond
taboos, using her blindness to weave a web of comfort. She was the base
line. Actually the performance was rooted, made possible, expanded from
my explorations with Teresa, Alex, Jennifer, and Erika over the last
There was always a lot of small things happening all the time in a relaxed
reality .... so we sat around eating chocolate cake, Teresa crawling
exploring bodies, a woman going around collecting piss, blood, hair,
and I don't know what else for a magical art package as a kid's musical
toy played as a guy described passionately the chrome fucking machine
he was making for the Dada Fest. And that was the "intermission
break" if we were in theater rather than a communal trance. I swear,
I was trapped Sunday for 6 hours watching the video of the night ...
I couldn't move! Very near the end of the performance night, Alex and
I played very deep erotic small human rubbing into each other's body
rocking as my story MAGICAL CAVE LOVERS was played on tape and slides
of my 30 years of performances were projected on the wall. (Funny ...
I saw on the video that people didn't watch Alex and me, but were focused
on the slides.) Alex and me were a powerful generator of possibilities
in the whole night, combining with Teresa’s exploring throughout
the night. At the middle of the performance, I asked Teresa, Alex, and
Erika to talk about their working with me and how it has effected their
life work. They talked very deeply, pulling the whole performance in
much deeper ... so deep it made it possible to do the ritual that we
always had done before within the hidden/secret cave of Lila. The whole
room became the cave of Lila. This made it possible to video this ritual.
It hasn't been possible to video this ritual before. It is extremely
beautiful, melting bodies together ... at the end there are magical
shots of hands moving/dancing together.
June 12, 2002